Running out of time and patience

It's time I give you all a peek into my workout routine.  
I start my gym time with a warm up for 10 - 15 minutes on the treadmill or stationary bike. I don't go super fast since I'm only warming up my muscles before my trainer tries to make them wobbly.
My last training session reads like this.....

Upper body

Dual Cable Cross   Set 1)  20#  15 reps  Set 2)  25#  15 reps   Set 3) 20#  15 reps

Tricep Extention Rope  Set 1) 50#  15 reps  Set 2)  50#  15 Reps  Set 3)  50#  15 reps

Deltoid Fly Front    Set 1) 50#  15 reps  Set 2)  50#  15 reps   Set 3)  50#  15 reps

Deltoid Fly Back   Set 1)  50#  15 reps   Set 2)  50#  15 reps  Set 3)  50#  15 reps

Lateral Pull     Set 1) 55#  15 reps   Set 2) 55#  15 reps

Chest Press Machine  60#  15 reps

Abs on bench  10

Crunches 10

So for a break down of this I didn't start whining or thinking of hurting her until the abs crunching at the end.
I don't know if this means I'm doing good or so so or great.  I just know I'm seeing changes in my shape.  I'm not eating 100% great and healthy, but I'm more aware of what I put into my mouth.
With just over 50 days until my vacation I'm feeling the inner pressure to make the numbers drop faster.
I no longer beat myself up when I eat bad food or think less of myself either.  I'm making lifestyle changes and those are never easy.
I met with my counselor for one last time last week.  She marveled at the changes in me.  I actually looked younger to her than I did a year ago when I walked into her office and was hurting inside so badly I cried at our first meeting.   This last year has been a RENEWAL of life for me.  I'm living MY life MY way and with NO regrets.  
I've come so far in 12 months that I want to make the next 12 months become far behind me when I look back next year.  I can now accept me just like I am right this minute with all my extra weight and wrinkles.  I don't have to change one thing to be happier.  That is such a great feeling.  To not feel like I HAVE to do something.    However, I like knowing I CAN change anything if I choose to do it.   Last year I chose to handle things with my oldest child differently and not accept behavior I wouldn't tolerate in my friends.  Today I'm a much more balanced woman/wife/mother/daughter/friend than I was 12 months ago.
Are you happy with YOU right here right now?   Why not?  Is there something you need to change within yourself?
Why not make yourself happy by letting go of those bricks you've been dragging around since childhood?   No one can go back and change the past, Hollywood glamorizes it, but we know the past is just that...The Past!!!
Here's to OUR tomorrows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Thanksgiving with my family. I feel very blessed to have them.

Diary of a Mad Fat Woman (a friend gave me that title)

I guess I've been AWOL from blogging and possibly my own mind.  

I'm back and recovered from that torturous trip to ER.  The bruises have almost all healed and my tests were all good.  My cholesterol is down and my blood sugar was 90 and it wasn't even a 12 hour fast LOL.  I know it's not funny, but I did feel good knowing my body is processing sugars efficiently so far. 

I got a little side tracked with my working out and eating.   I did not completely derail so I'm very happy I succeeded in staying on track.

I found a very good trainer and asked her to hold me accountable like my previous trainer had. Not that the guys don't, but I need a female who knows how much to push me.  She took the time to talk to me about foods, eating and what I need to do to lose 2 pounds a week.  YES I committed to 2 pounds a week which means I could be down 18 pounds by my vacation, which would make me a very happy woman in Jamaica.

I'm so glad she let me say I'm doing my Atkins and didn't pooh pooh it.  However, I did start to see that I do need some carbs from grains and fruits.  I managed to eat well and balanced meals.  Only the scale will tell for sure.  

My workouts have been very intense even though I have a meniscus tear.  I've kept the workouts to the upper body and abs.  My abs are now very mad at me.

I've found that keeping myself busy with sewing has been a great way to keep my mind off eating.  I'm loving the creative side of me coming out again.  Having a husband who supports me in all areas of my life is the key to being able to focus on my goals.  Without his encouragement I don't think I could do this and see results.  

My daughters have been cheering me on too.  My youngest daughter is even going with me to the trainer to get beat up with me LOL. Thank You Little Bear :-)

Do you have people who cheer you on?  Do you know how to spot a saboteur?  You know...those well meaning "friends" who offer you foods they know your trying to avoid.

So this dairy of a mad fat woman continues and I hope that you too can enjoy the Super Bowl without using a super sized bowl of foods. Really celery and carrots are yummy when dipped in roasted red pepper hummus.

Nevaeh says     Licking the table has NO calories.........