Friday, April 22, 2011

Reset not tilt

It may seem like I had to reset my mind, well I did.  It wasn't quite on tilt, but it was stuck on wrong thinking.
I was always thinking about food and eating in unhealthy ways.  I didn't get that food was to help my body work better and more efficiently.  I lived to eat!  I didn't understand the concept of eating to live.  I ate very unhealthy foods and didn't listen to my body when it told me it didn't like what I fed it.
I'm listening and learning.  I'm feeling much better now that veggies are my focus along with protein.  I'm working out 3 days a week and if I can sneak in a few more workouts I'm doing it. 
The best part is I'm back to losing weight and feeling very good.  I'd just like the joint pain to go away.  Arthritis sucks!!  It's part of aging for me so I'm just doing what I can to ease the discomfort and living my life.
I've opted to do a modified Atkins eating plan.
I'm also keeping my calories under 1400.  It seems to be working and I do not feel deprived.  Time will tell, but I can do this.
I know, I said that before......Do  you feel like you have to keep doing Do Overs in your life too?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Big and Beautiful is not all it's cracked up to be: Vacation

Big and Beautiful is not all it's cracked up to be: Vacation: "Vacation.....that time of year when we say 'No dieting because I want to enjoy the foods'. I did just that. I enjoyed the foods ..."


Vacation.....that time of year when we say "No dieting because I want to enjoy the foods".  I did just that.  I enjoyed the foods and must say that I only put back on 2 pounds. Granted it's the same 2 pounds I keep re-losing every week.  
I enjoyed the drinking and new foods.  I wanted to try out the gym, but my husband kept reminding me we were on vacation.  Every morning I wanted to slip in to get on the scale some gymrat was in there running on a treadmill or doing yoga. :sigh: I did get in a water aerobics class while in the pool our second to last day.
Believe it or not I missed my gym time. I know, what's wrong with me??  I missed the adrenaline rush of lifting weights and feeling my muscles getting shakey.  
I HAD to go to the gym today.  I did a 40 minute workout and it felt great!!
I already have my 2 training appointments scheduled for this week.  Tomorrow I get back on the eating better bandwagon.  I'm more determined than ever to finally get this done. 
Why is it so easy to make the excuse "I'm on vacation" to justify eating whatever I want when on vacation?  Does the fat take a vacation from expanding on my body?  NO so why should I take a vacation from being vigilant and continuing my fight to lose this excess weight?  Interesting question.  I need to find MY answer and then follow thru and be strong.
Next vacation won't be until next year so I have lots of time to get back on track and stay on task.
What do yo do about your vacation "splurging"?
Enjoying my Jamaican vacation

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Magazine's for REAL women?

I just got done torturing myself with the latest Lucky magazine.  Lots of clothing ideas and accessorizing happening this summer.   
But then it hit me.... What do us REAL women wear?  All these models are 5'8" and wear a size 0.  Ummm Hello what size do most of the women in the USA wear?  14, yes a size 14 is the average size.  
So where are the magazines with the size 14 models in them to show us what the clothes will look like?
I am so sick of being fed the lie that only a 20-something size 0 with perfect proportions is accepted.  
I look at the models now and think, oh how much airbrushing did they need to do to make her look like she needs to be fed?   I think so much of what we see has been "retouched" and isn't normal that I view magazines as cartoons.
9/26/09 my 50th birthday party.  I so want to be a model cause I love the spotlight :-)
I even look at the "articles" as advertisements too.  Why bother to read them when some company is paying them to write it to make a point to buy their products?  

I'd just like to see a magazine with larger women modeling and showing the rest of the world what the normal person is wearing in fashionable clothing.  Because, quite frankly, I asked the model in the magazine "Hey what do 51 year old women wear?" Certainly not the short shorts I saw one model wearing.  I don't wear short shorts I wear capri's because no one really wants to see my jiggly thighs as I'm walking thru the mall. Nor do they want to see my jiggly "muffin top" showing with that short cropped top the other model was wearing.   No Caftans or MuuMuu's for me, but gosh how about giving us more than Lane Bryant's catalog to see what REAL women look like it the newest fashions.
Anyone want to start a REAL sized woman magazine and modeling agency?  I'd love to be a model.........