Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Cha Cha Cha Changes....

Don’t go making changes on me… I don’t handle changes well.
I know Weight Watchers was looking at their bottom line $$$$ when they moved the really good motivational leader we’d had to another location over the Christmas holidays.  NOT a good move. Many people who were not there when he made his little announcement found out the next week and were PISSED.  One week your favorite leader is telling you how to live with WW and Points Plus the rest of your life, the next he’s gone without any warning.
Listen I understand how companies work. I’ve witnessed one too many “down sizings” and “changes”.  I just wonder where the commitment is for the people who are spending their money at WW meetings every week/month.  I’m going to see/hear him tonight because I have lost all motivation in the last 2 weeks.  I’m not caring what I’m eating and I can’t live like this. I can’t gain back what I’ve already lost AGAIN!
I'd even eat this, but it looks so disgusting I just couldn't!! Would YOU eat this?

So now I need to figure out how to accept changes without going off the rails.  I’ve got all the tools to do this thing and do it perfectly.  Yet I get thrown off the rails by little things. They seem little to most people, but to me they are big things.  I just have to cope and not lose my Mojo. 
I have so many positives in my life and no room to complain about anything really.  I just have these pesky little things getting in my way and throwing me off.
My Arthritis pain has been worse the last two weeks and I’m so scared of becoming dependant on my pain medicine.  I know I’m not taking much, but the fear lingers in the back of my mind.  I just keep doing my work outs and tread milling like a crazy person. I know I’m not helping my joints any, but good grief I need to keep moving or I’ll just go back to growing into Jabba the Hut.  Not who I want to look like. 
It’s so hard to see the people who gave up and don’t care anymore.  I’m not giving up, which is why I’m willing to drive 14 miles one way in rush hour traffic to hear Randy speak tonight.  I am NOT going to weigh in, I’m just going to listen and see if I can talk to him.   I like how I’m feeling and the great changes I’m seeing in my body.  I can’t like to give up EVER.(Spoken like Nevaeh)  I’ve never wanted to be a quitter, but I have quit things before. 
My Mom Betty Ann
 This last Saturday was the 9th anniversary of my Mother's death and every year at this time I get depressed. You see I was with her when she took her last breath and held her hand as she left this world. I know she wouldn't want me to give up. For YOU Mom I'll keep moving forward.
Christmas maybe 1967? My Mom, me and my Dad
Getting healthier and stronger has been my goal along with losing the weight.  I just feel overwhelmed some days and fight the urge to throw in the towel.  Do you feel that way ever?  How do you get past the urge to quit?  What have you found that keeps you going even when the scale doesn’t favor you?  Should I throw out my scale and just go to my accountability meeting once a week to find out my weight?  How do I get my head back on track?
I’m open to suggestions and will gladly post your feedback if you allow me to.  Let’s get this conversation going both ways.  I’m not here to just talk/write AT you, but to open up a dialog with other people who struggle with these issues too.
It’s Tuesday and I need to get this figured out before I weigh in Saturday……oh dear this is gonna be a long week.

1 comment:

  1. So, in some ways, I'm not a big fan of Chuck Swindoll - but some things he says makes sense - like his statement about Attitude - http://www.bigeye.com/attitude.htm

    Maybe that applies here. You've got too much good going for you, and your dedication to healthy weight loss is adding to that. Sure, being upset about losing a great motivational speaker at your meetings is a downer. Going through the day that you lost your mom is a downer. But, should those items change what you are doing? Not only for yourself, but as you have said previously, improving your health - a need for you, and a gift to your children and grandchildren.

    You're doing it Di - don't stop now. I'm going to take a crack at it too. I was doing well 3-4 years ago, and got lazy due to stress - going to do it again.